This is a small website dedicated to the things that built me, anime, music and games.
An immortal being learning what it means to feel, lose, love, and being human. Fushi's lives in my head rent-free.
Watched it when I was a young kid, one of my first ever shows. Tho it's still pretty weird how they drew taiga
Popular, sure. but the animation, the lore, the way gege makes you care and then ruins you. Peak.
Nobody talks about this and it upsets me. It's a show about not fitting anywhere and finding someone who gets it anyway. Felt personal.
I know what people say, don't care. It raised me.
Couldn't stop crying. Guilt, isolation, the slow painful work of forgiving yourself. This show stays with you.
Never fully understood it and I think that's the point, still awesome.
Not an anime, but whatever. It's solo leveling but better.
Every episode a beautiful letter (see that reference). Grief, love, what it means to understand someone. Cried so much.
Broke something and never put it back, music and color and loss. I think about kousei and kaori a lot.
My music taste is all over the place, I listen to almost everything, but ken ashcorp and ISSBROKIE are my main artist, I love their music, but I don't think anyone will ever fully understand my music taste, thats fine.
It's been with me so long that it doesn't feel like a game anymore, it feels like a place. There's something about the freedom of it, It grew up with me, C418 alone can make me emotional.
On the surface it looks like a dating sim, but the more you play it the more it becomes something else entirely. It pokes at real things, loneliness, being unseen, the way people perform versions of themselves. Yuri especially. something about her just is me.
"It's not just a piece of art, it's something i actually felt, sat with, worked through, and decided to put into the world."
I'm a jack of all trades. I pick things up fast, get into them completely, make them mine. art, video editing, anything I find myself naturally good at, creating is just how I make sense of what's going on inside me when I'm quiet.
Most of the time people don't care enough about what I make. Most do not care about my art, but I don't make things for validation. But there's a difference between validation and just being seen. That's all I want, a fan base or just someone to actually feel something from what I made, the way I felt something making it. It's a small want that always feels like a big thing. I keep making anyway.
In conclusion - I'm just a weird person who feels fundamentally different, I'm nothing more.
but still — I do my bestest to live life fully.